I've tried so many times to write an entry. I stop and reread what I wrote and think its total shit.
I can't sleep. I can't relax. It's driving me crazy.
How do I stop the anxiety and panic attacks? Why is it that every time I put my head down and try to get some rest all I can think about is all the bad things that can happen to my baby? Why is it that no one prepared me for this?
These ain't no baby blues.
There's no one to talk to about this. It's a complete loneliness no one can understand but a new mother going through ppd.
My case is mild though.
It's like a friend of mine once said, "If you're going through hell, keep walking."
It will all be ok.